January 2009
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“The greatest prayer is patience.”
– Prince Gautama Siddharta (founder of Buddhism)
i keep tellin myself, i keep tellin myself
I’m a little uncertain about things again. I think my biggest life lesson, the one that I have been trying to learn since grade school, is that NO MATTER WHAT, IF YOU’RE DOING SOMETHING BECAUSE IT’LL MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY, YOU AREN’T DOING IT FOR THE RIGHT REASON!
It always pains me to think that because it feels selfish but as time turns, I’m starting to see that...
a leopard cant change his stripes
Looks like no voice lessons for me :( My inner 7th grade disappointment would have liked to sing again but maybe it just wasnt meant to happen like this. I’m still figuring it out, really. My class was cancelled so that means free time?? I’m trying to be open minded about it instead of sad…but we’ll see where that gets me.
Here’s just a few. Sorry, no kittens and...
growing up
I wish someone had warned me when I was young that this would be difficult. I’m not exactly sure if it’s something you can prepare for like a standardized test. I’ve never been too great at taking tests. I’m feeling anxious about this one.
I wish someone had told me that I would grow attached to people who would enter my life to protect me, to teach me how to trust and to...
back to cool!
I was a little bummed about coming back to school this semester. I wasnt too sure that I should continue..really didnt want to continue mostly because I wasnt taking classes I liked. That changed! Different courses, awesome professors. Things are going to turn out really well this time around.I absolutely love my hippy professors, music should be awesome. I made the right decisions this time...
Happy Inauguration Day!
my Bishop is giving the president an inspirational message right now which only adds to my excitement. it wouldve been awesome to be in washington today, maybe a bit romantic, but i am quite content sitting on the floor with cupcakes and redbull in full supply..and tissues within reach. i wish i could pinpoint why today makes me emotional. all i know is, today is not only a beautiful day for...
just thinkin
i’m a captive of my bed/couch. my legs are in pain, my cheeks are puffy and swollen from wisdom tooth problems and i may have had a fever earlier says
teh mommz. i’m using my time wisely, googling oddphrases and harassing my friends via text/mobile web.
i’m pumped full of all the motrin my liver can handle so i should be fine in a day or so. i really wish i knew more organic...
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drat.
last night in my bedroom, i gave an academy award winning performance in tribute to high school musical with emphasis on sharpay and no one even saw it. what hurts the most is that, i wont get my award. my pirouette was absolutely flawless! people go to school for years in order to pull of flying leaps like mine! this is outrageous!! I DESERVE AN AWARD!
this is how i know i havent gone anywhere...
“The Language of Love”
– Je veux que ma main s’insére dans le vôtre
(I want my hand to fit into yours)
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salvation
Matt Thiessen has managed to write a song to match every emotion I have ever felt. From summertime, to wintertime, MTV and veggietales (the pirates that dont do anything song) he has managed to win me over.
I didnt sleep last night for a number of reasons. I had a lot of
questions. Now, I have a lot of answers. Changing my environment, not
myself. “I am understood?” Relient K will...
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OMGG!
Did you see One Tree Hill? Bust a Move AND MOUSETRAP!! Too much greatness and totally worth missing a grocery shopping trip with the momz for.
I got a little misty eyed today because I’m now taking voice lessons!! Its
been a loooong time coming and just a little backstory: by some stroke of fortune I was assigned to a choir class my first year of
middle school at Crockett. I had never...
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“I’ve always felt that if you can’t make money as an actor,...”
– i’m remembering who i am and who i want to be. sucking all of the poisonous
people from my life, the negative thoughts, the things that dont make me
happy. im reclusive and boring right now because i need to shut myself
away from everything that would distract me from the process of...
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rats and bats and hats and simon baker
i keep having slightly odd dreams.
a few nights ago i had one that took place in my room.
the bestfrannnd and i were sitting around, i was ironing (and i know this was a dream cause i iron maybe, 3 times a year) and my closet door was open.
i go to sit on my bed and she screams OMIGAWWD ITS A RAT! the rat takes
off toward the door and jumps up on the ironing board. it looks at me and smiles...
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"this isnt church"
my bishops movie, Not Easily Broken, was pretty amazing. the screening turned out to be a lot of fun and i’m glad that so much of the fam came out to support our bishop. i guess a few things that struck a chord with me were the themes of pride and independence and its place in the marriage. i probably shouldnt give too much away so i wont. i think my bishops goal with this movie was to...
dont cut me off
as i was dreaming, all the city lights rushed by, i knew where i was going.
i knew what i was thinking. one by one by one by one my thoughts were being
thought.
then i opened my eyes slightly in the dark, the air hit my lashes and i became aware of where i was, of what i was doing and i screamed.
my thoughts were falling.
my thoughts were fading as they pushed in front of the other trying to...
tragic case of jealousy
while i cant say this is the first time ive let some poor jealous girl make me upset, im ashamed at having not learned the first time around.
fool me once….fool me twice….
i share a generous amount of information with everyone but now i think i share a little too much information with the wrong people.
for about an hour or 3 i was pretty livid. i take all of my friendships...
Mind over matter
as long as i take care of me, myself, and i this year everything else will fall
right into place.
i guess whats on my mind is seeing someone act terribly jealous when i bring
up someone who enjoys my attention….and instead of just saying: “hey, i dont want you with anyone else but me because i deserve you, not him”….
they let me go. and i continue to think about it, and...
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now accepting applications...
dun dun dun
this is a list i made as a result of a late night textversation i had once. ive made lists before concerning guys but they were usally
just me being picky about things i didnt like or being too concerned
with things that dont matter (though i really do like long hair…ugh, i think i can let it go)
the name of the game was to write down everything that was important
to me....
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homophones! homophones!
today has been an incredufab day. all of the people ive stressed about seem
to be on the up and up, our relations with each other are back to normal and i seemed more like myself today than ever
“plays aggressive but shy”
im also starting to think that Ne-Yo met me in his dreams and i impressed him cause he keeps writing songs about me!
oh well, a girl can dream….
im going...
give love
and watch it return.
this year i’m making love a priority because the universe has made me one for
love.
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im making sangria, its really yummy
i kind of scared myself today. i realized that this year i turn the big 2-0. that would mean ive been alive 2 decades! last year i did so much, met so many new people, had some new experiences. i guess im still taking it all in. i have learned alot in 19 years and im not done yet. i have done alot in 19 years and theres so much i have yet to accomplish. one of my wishes is that i have made the...
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new years resolutions....
1. Be happy.
-let everyones opinions go including mine
-ignore jealous girls
-etc
2. See more movies
movies i saw this year: HSM 3, The Longshots, Speedracer, Hancock,
The Day the Earth Stood Still, Hannah Montana 3d concert.
This year, i want to see one a month. if not two.
3. Be a better friend
-acquaintance, Best Friend….whatever. im gonna rock at it.
all easy and...